mari kita updet

to do list

• amek passport kat embassy
• balut adiah hunny
• wish bday ayu
• wish bday zaza
• packing bag g london
• print flight itinerary
• print car rental agreement
• lipat baju (adoiii malas gile!!!)
• kemas or buang notes2 exam ritu
• carik uma baru yg dekat sket ngn opis
• pk azam baru thn dpn... not!
• carik adiah utk wedding Juraj
• catch up my movie list
  

isk... byk bende nak disetel. da abes xm ni rase mls mcm hape. keje kat office berlambak2 sampai tak rase pn mood christmas a.k.a mood cuti. :-) siap ade xmas decoration competition utk setiap department but we didnt do anything. ye la. skg ni transition period utk VAT changes for UK and Ireland. mmg la kelam kabut. tade mase langsung nak hias2. so yesterday was the judgement day and our MD said 'i've one word for you guys. Pathetic.' dang! hahahah... patut la org slalu complain finance dept ni busan2 belaka. bukan busan. busy je. klu tak bz msti da lip lap lip lap da tmpat ktorg tu. brg2 ade. mase je tade. takkan nak stayback utk hias office? byk lagi keje lain. huhuhuu...

lately the feeling of frustration, anger, humiliation and those bad auras been haunting me 24/7. why is it so hard? and why is it so difficult? do i not deserve to be happy with my way? why is there a need to object everything i said? am i not 'old' enough to decide my own life? do you own me? i am trying not to sound like a complete moaner but i can't keep it to myself anymore. i need somebody to hear me. someone with no judgmental issue. someone who can hear me out but say nothing further afterwards. ade ke? help!!!

i need to be alone. alone from everyone. i want to be in a place with completely new faces and new environment. n i hope i will never ever see that place again after that. and how i wish i've never known some of the people that i met this year. how i wish!!! tp itu suda melawan qada dan qadar tuhan. allah berfirman

'tidak akan ku turunkan dugaan melainkan hambaku itu mampu menanggungnya.'

' dan boleh jd kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan kamu mungkin sukakan sesuatu sedangkan ia lebih buruk kepada kamu. dan hanya allah yg mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui' - surah albaqarah

astaghfirullahhh... smoga allah ampunkn aku. fikiran serabut senang nak buat diri jadi kurang bersyukur. focus aishah... focus. dan doa2 org teraniaya itu makbul. semoga mereka menerima balasan setimpal dan cukup utk buatkan mereka menyesal dan berjanji tidak akan mengulang kembali perkara yg sama. aminn....