phew~~ glad it's over. my TL and Kinga are back and now i feel like breathing again. it's not even the month end yet but the workloads are like hell. i should celebrate that it's over now. yippe yayy yeaaa... ummm... unfortunately, becoz of the stress and pressure im getting, i'm not only got myself rashes and ulcers, but flu and fever also kind heartedly pay me a visit. sigh~ i can't apply for an MC. i've taken too much leave this two months. nontheless, i've to be strong. yeah! mggu dpn raya (ade kaitan x?)

hey, have you guys watch Hellboy? you know the song that the blue guy sang when he's so drunk? i fall in love with the song just like that. please.. try listening to this song. u'll like it.

I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU

YOU KNOW I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T LAUGH AND I CAN’T SING
I’M FINDING IT HARD TO DO ANYTHING

YOU SEE I FEEL SAD WHEN YOU’RE SAD
I FEEL GLAD WHEN YOU’RE GLAD
IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH
I JUST CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU

YOU CAME ALONG JUST LIKE A SONG
AND BRIGHTEN MY DAY
WHO WOULD HAVE BELIEVED THAT
YOU WERE PART OF A DREAM
NOW IT ALL SEEMS LIKE YEARS AWAY

AND NOW YOU KNOW I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T LAUGH AND I CAN’T SING
I’M FINDING IT HARD TO DO ANYTHING

YOU SEE I FEEL SAD WHEN YOU’RE SAD
I FEEL GLAD WHEN YOU’RE GLAD
IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH
I JUST CAN’T SMILE

NOW SOME PEOPLE SAY HAPPINESS TAKES
SO VERY LONG TO FIND
WELL, I’M FINDING IT HARD
LEAVING YOUR LOVE BEHIND ME

AND YOU SEE I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
I CAN’T LAUGH AND I CAN’T SING
I’M FINDING IT HARD TO DO ANYTHING

sweet isn't it? and we managed to download the song too. yeay!! *CLAP2 to hunny*

given that i havent updated anything for a good few days, i ought to write a lil bit longer today to compensate the frustration you guys undergo when you open this blog and see there's nothing new. haha~ sorry lads. the will is there but the time is not. sgt busy bekerja mencari rejeki. ewahh!

reading others' blogs bout raya hit me hard on the head (and heart as well) to see and realise what im missing (again) this year. i cant forget the overwhelming feeling of seeing all the family members gathering in one house and early morning, everybody is so happy to try the new raya outfit with small kids running here and there and waiting for the duit-raya giving ceremony. the smell of rendang and lemang, OMG!! raya is not raya without those smells. and these two years i've been trying so hard not to think of it too much. even this year, i dont plan anything for raya. not even bother about my baju raya *note that my sister hasnt send it to me yet* what for? even if i get it on time, i dont feel excited to wear it. just like a normal cloth that i wear everyday i supposed. maybe im in denial or sth? trying to conceal the actual feeling of sadness and frustration? therefore i made up all those excuses of not celebrating raya. hurm.. maybe... yet again, like my mom said, if you want to be happy, make do of what you have. and i am making do with what i have. WORK that is. i enjoy coming to the office and that is what i am gonna do this year. :-)

my holiday in December is now approved. yippee!! it's gonna be two weeks starting from 24th to 2nd of Jan. i have to go to London to renew my passport. need to plan carefully coz i really wish to go to barcelona again or maybe paris. urgghh... not really good at planning. lg tak pandai nk cari cheap accomodation. cane nih? HELP!!! mane nk start dulu eh? afiq.. please refresh you memories in Spain. mgkin aku takyah g barca lg tp g madrid? tlg ye incik?

well.. better stop now. zillions emails coming. *exaggerating* toodles!!!